Not Even In Death Will Us Part

I never knew how warm it felt.
It feels almost like a lullaby as it surrounds me.
All I see is red.
It flows, like a steady stream.
Blood drips from my skin onto the cold floor.

Everyone thinks you get flash backs when you’re about to die.
Lies.
No flash backs, no white light.
Just the cold hard truth that there’s no turning back now.

I forgave you every single time you said sorry.
Even after you decided one day that you could treat me like your doll,
Pushing and beating me to the ground.
I didn’t mind.
I just wanted your touch; even it was the dawning fist that constantly came towards me,
Showing no mercy.

Don’t worry baby..
It’ll all be over soon.
I’ll make it quick.
I promise it won’t hurt, well, not for too long.

I only needed a shield in the beginning.
Something to convince me to take the first step.
I knew the rest would be easy.

Before your hand was able to inflict me with yet another love scar,
I struck you.
The blade went in with ease; like a knife to butter.
You didn’t realise till I held the blood-dripping blade in front of you.
It took you a few seconds to fall to the ground.

But you don’t understand sweetheart.
I do love you.
I love you so much.

Now we can be together forever and
And maybe this time you’ll be a little nicer.

Carla Dunareanu